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Saturday, July 31, 2010

If I have money I will go for..

1. Plastic surgery(but i think i look good enough) so I'll visit Dr Georgia Lee instead.
2. Go for a surgery to remove extra vein=no more sweaty palm. It freaking costs about $8000+
3. Personal gym instructor to train me and gain weight.
4. Go attend radio,music courses. Courses I wanna attend but I do not have enough $$
5. Pursue my dreams.

But my top priority is to change myself, my current self that you know.
You never know how demoralised it is to compare it with another guy.
I just listed a long list of the disadvantages of being me, chuajiahao.
It sucks being me.
Nope, there ARE no advantages it is just self-comforting or simply lying if you said that.
Because all the advantages are just an average of all the guys HAVE. So it is normal.
Wait, if ameliakang saw this I think she's gonna get mad at me for comparing AGAIN.
Me being so pessimistic.

Yesterday was quite memorable for me while going home after concert.
While all along it WAS memorable at esplanade.
It was so near to my work place last year as a banquet waiter.
The same escalator, the same paths we used to walk, those times when my heart was so heavy.
I was so stress about working or being late as the managers there, especially pala is VERY fierce.
Or worried about carrying heavy stuffs as I can't do that, what do you expect from a 45.5kg male?
Me and taiyang used to run through all those paths in the middle of the night to catch the last train,
when all the shop houses have closed and preparing for the next working day.
It was quiet, no one else except us.
And I used to dress really casually to such places and seeing everyone dress nicely and going out.
I will usually look at them and think : '' Hai, they're going out. And here I am, going to work. ''
Guys staring at my nerdy-gel hair(no choice compulsory for the guys to do that for banquet)
And now, walking along the same old paths reminds me of those days.
Formally dressed, happily chatting with a group of friends, preparing to go into esplanade for a concert.
It was a completely different experience and the feeling was good :)

PS : A long entry coming up soon. To compensate for not blogging.
I think I should not close down this blog. I'll try to update, it was filled with so much memories.
From sec 1(2006) till now.

PPS : This happened on Thursday. (half-day school)
Me : *tap Mrs Gan shoulder* Heyhey!!
Mrs Gan : Smile back to me and said : wahhh very happy hor don't have my lesson today.
Me : I am super happy omg skip 2 periods of boring poa lessons and since I don't know what to reply.
I just gave her a smile and faster walk away. LOL!!

PPPS : If you're wrong, apologise. It doesn't mean that by saying sorry you're a loser. It is just a basic courtesy, a form of respect to the people around you. Don't try to act cool and think you are STILL right and blame the fault on others and want them to apologise to you or you'll not talk to them. This is so ridiculous!! Although sorry is nothing or no cure as the things had already happened but you made the person feel better. Of course, it is the sincerity from the heart. If you keep making mistakes and apologise, what is the use of saying sorry? You did it once,twice,thrice. There is no trust, you're NOT responsible about yourself.

PPPPS : What do you think about my new blogskin? :D
I know it is not really good but then I am so sick of the orange blogskin. I need a new one!!
Or else I will be so not motivated to come to my own blog.

Jiahao,17yrs old.
Yuying Secondary.

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